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Sun, 21 Oct 2012 03:06:12 -0400

theclearlydope: If I had reenlisted as a No Limit Soulja I...

Wed, 26 Sep 2012 21:01:46 -0400

theclearlydope:

If I had reenlisted as a No Limit Soulja I would be retired with full benefits by now.

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Thu, 19 Jul 2012 07:30:13 -0400

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Wed, 11 Jul 2012 08:51:53 -0400

I said id never fall in love again. Guess i was completely wrong. Im so lucky” ive never had a best friend and love interest .. its pretty much the best #igotthislovebugagain

"Give her a Quaalude, she’ll be back in the morning"

Thu, 28 Jun 2012 15:14:04 -0400

““Give her a Quaalude, she’ll be back in the morning””

- Tony Montana

Hehe

Thu, 02 Feb 2012 14:39:31 -0500

Hehe

"Didn’t have to stoop so low, have have your friends collect your records and then change your..."

Thu, 02 Feb 2012 14:34:02 -0500

“Didn’t have to stoop so low, have have your friends collect your records and then change your number. Guess that I don’t need that though. Now you’re just somebody that I used to know.”

Of course.

Wed, 01 Feb 2012 05:10:59 -0500

Ahhh yes, of course I am awake at this hour. While all of you lie asleep in your silly little beds, I collect the US CURR3N$Y!

Lalalala Damn girl, YOU THICKKK!! ;-*

Wed, 01 Feb 2012 05:08:59 -0500

Lalalala Damn girl, YOU THICKKK!! ;-*

"I said, baby you got me.don’t worry your pretty little mind."

Sun, 29 Jan 2012 18:00:21 -0500

“I said, baby you got me.don’t worry your pretty little mind.”

3rd shift

Thu, 26 Jan 2012 05:11:04 -0500

So, after the first 5 hours, it seems as though im watching.myself work. Its like im.not really working at all which comes up premium considering i absolutely despise.me.job in the worst way. On the bright side, there id only 1 hour and 49 minutes until my shift end$$. I thank you Lord for this amazing body. I have no idea how I am still awake or alive :p

Some things I see in myself

Wed, 18 Jan 2012 22:13:12 -0500

I hate my character flaws, but one major one that pretty much affects my life and those around me on a duly basis is ease with which I become angry or frustrated. The next step in line is usually to try as hard as possible to make them feel just as I feel, hurt/angry. For this, I am truly sorry to those who I have acted this way towards. Recently, though, I have become quite proficient at not taking it out on other people and holding it back as not to cause hurt for others. Nonetheless, my question is this: what the hell am I supposed to do with all of these angry feelings and this hurt that I feel inside? Most of it is a nostalgic hurt that remains from when I was younger and was the brunt of someone elses anger that they received the same way. Im going to try the best I can to turn those feelings to dust and get rid of them so that I might not pass them on to the ones that I love because I care more about them than I do about myself even if mt children aren’t born I already know this about the people that I love as of recent. Break the circle of anger. Deal with it, don’t pass it on.

You know ...

Wed, 18 Jan 2012 18:27:26 -0500

Giving up that old lifestyle that I’ve lead for so long has opened so many new doors for me. I don’t use any drugs, I drink on occasion, and i don’t sleep around. For one thing, I now have a beautiful girlfriend that doesn’t have to second guess the things that I do or where I am it if I might take something harmful to myself. Also, not sleeping around has afforded me the opportunity to be trusted by her as well. Honestly, abstinence has been interesting thus far, but I don’t mind it all that much and to be honest, it will be so special when someone special and I are completely ready. You’d think id go insane or something, but seriously im actually so much happier in this kind of relationship than I ever was whilst “hooking up”.
The navy. Very obviously, I couldn’t have even pondered the idea of doing something so spectacular amongst my old “friends” and whilst doing what I was doing. Im so hopeful and happy for the future I have ahead of me and quite possibly the future of someone whom I could really truly spend an unlimited amount of time with.

I’m so very excited and happy with the possibilities ahead of me. <3

"You know, I’m ok with it. I’m ok with it because I’ve seen pictures of the two of..."

Wed, 18 Jan 2012 00:54:21 -0500

“You know, I’m ok with it. I’m ok with it because I’ve seen pictures of the two of you. Only, that smile you’re doing, its fake. I can tell because I’ve seen the way you really smile. Its beautiful.”

- Reliable

Fail to plan. Plan to fail.

Wed, 18 Jan 2012 00:35:50 -0500

Someone said to me recently, “today is what the rest of your life is going to look like, how do you feel about that?” The question is somewhat obviously rhetorical, but in my head I answered, “I feel absolutely 100% terrible about this being the rest of my life.” So, im going to do something about it.
Four years from now ill either be finishing nursing/accounting school or (&&I’m leaning toward the following;) leaving/signing for 2+ more years in the navy with a focus in advanced electronics or as an EOD (explosive ordinance disposal). Clearly there are some choices to be made there, but more than choices they are different paths that I am awaiting answers on which I should choose. In june of 2011, I was arrested for possession of a class b narcotic (molly). Luckily, all charges were dropped on insufficient evidence and/illegal search. This most likely means that I still will be able to join the navy as planned, but that’s something I will have tohave check into. One thing is for sure, tomorrow when I head out to work at quad graphics for $8/hr for 10 hours, that will not be the first day of the rest of my life because in less than a month I will not be working there any longer. I have grandeur plans for myself, I have always known I was meant for something worth being proud of. I’m taking this beautiful girl on the same journey with me because she’s everything I ever wanted. She isn’t like the girls in my past that take me for granted, date someone in another country as well as I at the same time, or lie directly to my face in saying that they loved me. She tells me she loves me and ill never have to second guess it. Its nothing visual, physical, or shallow… its perfect and it’s truly heartfelt, love! So, cheers to those in my past. You have done an excellent job of making my future look so much brighter && good luck with your dreary, depressing, fake, unfortunate future… I wish differently for you, but judging by your actions… not likely. If I know one thong that you never will, it’s that if you can not be happy on your own than another will never make you happy. Seek self happiness before confiding in another to do just that. Its worth the wait, trust me :D

Welcome to Tuesday night in my home. I loveeee it.

Tue, 17 Jan 2012 19:27:01 -0500

Welcome to Tuesday night in my home. I loveeee it.

So much has changed.

Sun, 15 Jan 2012 16:32:36 -0500

So, this being the first time I have posted on here in about 4 months, I figure I ought to give a quick update. Forward motion. I got my own place, a full time job, and had a lot of fun. I learned a lot about life, money, “friends”, friends, family, girls, women, and what I…would not like the rest of my life to look like. 2012, for me, is not the end of the world, but the beginning of my adventure toward succeeding in life and happiness. I truly believe that I have found someone that makes me happy for all of the right reasons. She’s smart, beautiful, shy as hell (&&ILOVEIT), and even though we go through a lot of tough times and we don’t get to see eachother much we make it work, and she’s perfect to me. As far as what i’m going to do moving forward, I’m definitely considering the navy… again. I’m probably moving back out of the apartment because I need to save more money, but nothing set in stone yet. So that is where I am at. Content… Definitely content. :)

Suddenly...

Fri, 09 Sep 2011 08:38:22 -0400

Everything has changed. In life you adapt to the situations put in front of you. Sometimes you just have to throw in the white flag. Thank you Jesus for not giving up on me. I’m trying. I really am.

I'm that forgettable.

Tue, 06 Sep 2011 04:52:43 -0400

It’s only been a week or two… And you’ve already completely forgotten about me. Thought I’d feel better eventually. Looks like I really meant what I said.

I miss you...

Tue, 06 Sep 2011 03:45:15 -0400

Being around everyday and never going more than one day without a kiss from you. Took it for granted. That’s for sure.